Welcome, let the journey of your imagination begin…

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I’ve added under this tab writings in random order I have written over the years. I have alphabetized them under the Writing Tab. I have put various sayings, and musings on pictures which can be found under the Gallery of Ideas on Pictures Tab. Maybe one day, I’ll weave the story line around the writings and pictures.

I must add, not everything written is truth, some things are fantasy pieces built around fragments of observations I have made either from my own experiences, or from the experiences I have observed play out in the lives of others.

Sometimes it is easy for me to write from a flow state, and at other times not so much from a flow state, thus some pieces are often better than others; however I don’t let the pieces that are not that great stop me from writing. I have found that if I just keep writing, good, bad, or indifferent, gems on occasion miraculously appear on the page. I keep my imagination active, and I hope you will find your thought processes actively engaged in your own imagination should you take an interest in my writings.

I also should note, as much as I try to do the right thing in my life, as evidenced in my writings, I fail miserably at times as also evidenced in my writings, please do not take anything I write as advice (disclaimer), certainly sift for the meanings for your own truths(qualifier). Many things written are in metaphor and are meant figuratively, not literally.

If you are under the age of 18 some content may not be suitable for you to read, so just don’t!

 

Forever Be

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You need a girl like me
innocent in pursuits
wishing for nothing more than to please
an open heart to give
I’ve seen so many things
experienced them in the extreme
I know what it means
to walk a path of love
to give it away to all in one form or another
to observe, and learn, and to give
no ego, no judgments, no fear
love for all people and things
the destinations I learned to strive for
in the process I learned to feel
from all points of view
to soar in wealth
and survive without
with only wisdom to guide me
to bleed in persecution
to seek absolution
my saving grace
to stand
yet on my knees I’ll always pray
to surrender to the one for me
For it is not things to comfort me
but a blanket of divinity
in doing what is right
I wish to surround myself within
a love that is pure
to give and to receive
I am the kinda woman
that many men want
yet fail to keep
for as soon as they find me
some tempting spirit
sends in an imposter
and off they fly
with the bait
only to realize later
they were beguiled
I’m the kind of woman
that needs a man of God
one who can recognize
the forces at play
and does not open the door
to their games…
for then such a man
will take my hand
and in his heart
I shall forever be…
3/30/2018

The Flame Within

Alabaster Christ1

 

Come to me in alabaster
Make your heart white as snow
Wear my crown upon your head
follow the conscious path
to right acts
Breathe in love
let it be your light
to guide you
for even angels bow
in delight
when alabaster shines
the flame within
grows bright
with each sacrament of love
the veil removed
as pain deflects
and joy abounds
upon the feet
that walk upright
no toil to carry there
within the halo blessed
so shall divine countenance
be upon your life
and all you touch
Come to me in alabaster
make your heart pure and true
for there within no blemish can taint
the chosen one
we choose
with each breath released to remember
the sacrifice to give
the path to walk
to give it all
and never look back
upon our fall
for from grace we came and grace we go
into the abode of home
forever more
4/4/2018
*Inspiration the picture, and purpose of facets of the Christos to emulate and manifest…
I suppose this picture caught my eye because it appears to be Christ in alabaster, and lights made of alabaster are to me always so beautiful, they radiate such a beautiful warm light, and the alabaster just seems to have some sort of sublime pristine glow….replace the word alabaster with Christ and there you have it a facet of the Christos…

Fence of Misery

fenced in

 

All you have to do is listen
and realize
in the chatter
the entities all around
pay no homage
to our creator
they mock and make small talk
of those who believe
and is it any wonder
you find yourself ensnared
in a world you wrestle to leave
the longing
will continue
until you find yourself
new company
so many infected with a spiritual disease
soulless aimlessly wandering
good folk and all
yet so misguided
and you know this
on the fence to ride
is not where your joy will be
take the fall and choose a side
listen to your inner guide
and part from such
for their advice (example)
will not take you home
to where your heart
longs to be
in the shelter of divinity
a blessing of purpose
to be found
for in the silence
your heart speaks
and this truth
will not cease
to awaken your eternal cause
for you are a light
if only they could see
yet do not lose yourself
in helping the blind
lead them out
and point the way
else lose yourself along the way
no one said you had to do that
when helping becomes a pit
and you find yourself stuck
the message may just be
it is time to listen
to your soul
and step off the fence of misery
for that is not
where you will be found
in the prisons they create
4/4/2018
*Sometimes standing on the fence becomes the prison of our dreams…being too impartial…we fail to remove the barriers in our way to finding our purpose and living our dreams…it is okay to have associations  with those whom do not believe, yet on the important relations in our lives it is imperative we are not unequally yoked (being around too many unlike minds), for then we become ensnared in a sea of negative energy, and the fence we stand on, as we think we are being open and neutral, has the capacity to become the fence of our misery, and our very own prison by default we create.

 

Silent Spaces

geogia batumi love

It is in the kindred
a paradise to be found
there we create
in the silent spaces
we surround ourselves within
the shelter
for what we crave
the similarities of desires
manifestations to notice
the outward signs
beneath the surface
the heart of what matters
there to be found
I think you know
I touch upon
that part of you
I think I know
you touch upon
that part of me
I think we know
We touch upon
that part of us
longing to be discovered
It’s hope to be revealed
the unconscious to become conscious
time unwinds these mysteries
where spaces become void
of nothingness
4/2/2018
Note: Looking for pic for this piece and I found the one above and here is a video of this moving art: Georgia Batumi Statute of Love at night

Embrace

embrace
I see in your eyes the hidden
the hopes within the heart
the fragile need you cannot seem to grasp
you see it all around and wonder why
it seems to not be
you need a woman like me
one who can let you bleed
and will be there through it all
so many have come and gone
and still always the horizon beckons
yet within you the answer lies
Your fears paralyze the flowers that open
too afraid they’ll take
yet it is you who must give
of your self
to come to know without hope for the return
the yearning to love must become complete in deed
for then shall you see
that which you yearn to embrace
will be there
it’s a give and take reciprocity
not a one sided affair of the mind
to dive deep into the life which is fueled to love
and swim within its passions
has it moments where the currents thrash
yet to never waver at the helm
for within there is a calm and bliss
and the peace it descends
is like none ever known
for in knowing, and not giving up in will
the fight of your life can be won
for to fight for anything other than love
is to flail in the wind
Not everyone deserves your time
Not everything you see is real
To find what nurtures must be sought
kindled, and protected
when in life you find
a like mind
who knows where love is not
yet is not fearful of the fall
and is dedicated to the journey
together two hearts can mend
whether it is for a season
or a lifetime the pleasures to feel
unencumbered, lend life to the process
for a life without love
is a lonely road
certainly there are many temptations
and games to play
yet rare is it you find
someone who understands
it is a grounding that can lift the soul
pierce the heart into ecstasies
and plunge it into the depths
of creation
3/30/2018

Long Forgotten

free

Steal kisses

Steal glimpses

Steal embraces

and what is it all for…

if not to touch the heart

Pull me in

Push me out

hold me close

fold out of grasp

and what is it all for…

if not to consummate

under current bond

over flow excuses flood

tight as life

unknowns are feared

and what is it all for…

when the unspoken is known

run away

and there you are

but can you find the time

if not for you

and what is it all for…

no time I’ve got

Waste another day

Surrounding in sounds

for where is yours

amidst the laughter

and what is it all for…

when out of heart you don’t belong

Finding time

Biding time

Making time

Taking time

and what is it all for….

when time steals away

It has been forsaken

taken for granted

not honored

the message lost

and what is it all for…

if the trust is blind

a dream is lost

yet held dear

to let go

in ultimate surrender

and what is it all for…

a love to have and to hold

long forgotten but buried there

3/14/2018

 

Truth

When God Shows Up on Your Front Porch

Just the truth

is all I wanted

You told me

I listened

It hit me like a knife

For all of my life

I only want to give

what I had not

and to think this creature

stole my dream

did to you

what was done to me

destroyed us all

in one fell swoop

a wanton thought

unbridled

and into my flesh and blood

he murdered our bond

he put a rift so wide

between us all

a demon could not have planned it better

for what he did to you

you hide

you protect him

it was not your fault

I never wanted you to be betrayed

Yet what he did

betrayed us all

I took the light

and shined it on his deeds

and needed your account

to make him stop

Yet, to no avail

You reconciled it

in your own way

your right to do so

yet to me

in the end

unfortunately you both betrayed

when I needed your voice the most

you fell silent

and inside you and I

the tears we hid

I don’t blame you

for covering his deeds

but how could you

leave me all these years to bleed

you must not know

the death of your innocence

my heart and soul

befalls my purpose

I feel with every breath

in my marrow

gut wrenched in mercy

for us all

yet my death it calls

forth truth

to save us all

in time upon him

it will be

known

in time

you will see

you are my life

I gave freely

to speak

against this abuse

for you to be free

unchained from his demise

behind the ranch gates

there he lies

his fate along a river

it runs with speed

time does not stop

until he sees it

and what shall he say

from beyond the banks

when God appears

 

3/9/2018

 

 

It’s Like Rain

like rain 1

It’s like rain

In the pools of our soul I swam

Into the flow of the stream

Toe to toe

Tip to finger to touch

onto the banks we landed

To heaven our deeds were seen

from the light into the shadows

I ran to escape

From being entrapped

It was like rain

Pouring down chemicals in the brain

To opiate the dross

To wring it all out

like a well unearthed

I am grounded

into another journey to step

It’s like rain

behind me

like flooding waters down a street

I turn away

spiraling fast down the drains

from beginning to end

I am released

the storm it came and went

not forever grasped

like rain

within a cloud floating by

I become light as a feather

washing it all

no more thunder inside

the tide is calm

where I reside

in stillness

the air I breathe

is clean

2/4/2018

In Search of Eden

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Is it possible to return to Eden? Of course in metaphor, yet in actions what would it take to return to a state of harmony? There is so much discord all around. We have moral compass points some follow, and for some they are outright immoral in their actions bobbing along never fully cognizant of charting their course through life, or worse yet choosing a nefarious path, come what may. Then it seems we have so many who get caught in a view that is amoral, not choosing to assign any path to a right or wrong way of being.

Will morality point us in the proper direction to find states of harmony, and could the compass points of morality embody the way of truth that could entice the human mind to follow in the direction of human accord in conscious thoughts and ways of being, given even within spiritual doctrines, many espouse the divisions and perpetuate hate? It really is a moral dilemma to contemplate. The amoral individual often finds oneself in a state of nihilism retreating from cause and effect, yet still affected by it no matter the cognitive rejection or perchance denial of such. The immoral individual is a beast unto itself, and their acts unfortunately have great capacity to sow seeds of discord and damage and destroy any chance of harmony in the lives they influence and impact.

 

What would it take for us to all be of one mind, a unified mind to create, and perpetuate actions that lead to harmony and accord in the conditions manifested in this life? Certainly philosophers, and theosophists have been seeking these answers for centuries. Are the answers found within the 10 simple and basic commandments, that all have broken? There is an irony to evaluate them for their simplicity in coming to understand the complexity within them, as all have failed to live them all, in their actions. Inherit in their directive is a tragedy to realize we all fall short, and perchance that is why so many just put them away from contemplation. Does it take on a turn of karma to be mindful of? Does being cognizant of karma spur us to accept a notion to be careful what we do in general in order to assist us to consciously choose to do no harm? Are we not even reminded in karma to be fearful of actions that may come back to visit us? Is it in the notion of a Zen like state we should aspire to rise above the conditions of the world in hopes to derive into an ascended way of being? In Crossing the Threshold of Hope, even John Paul II stated that some beliefs espouse the world as negative but not one to necessarily transcend in hopes to be removed from evil but one to be saved from through accepting Christianity, and in that process the world is not a bad or evil place to have to seek ascension from. Is practicing the golden rule the way to bliss? When all around us we have so many divisive energies and minds and all manner of intellects screaming to be heard; it is so hard to know at times which way to turn and which voices to heed in this sojourn here on Earth while we all inhabit the dross of the flesh that has its needs.

Does our spirit go inward, and find the silence of our heart to listen to its direction? Yet, if a heart is ensnared in amorality or immorality or duplicitous morality , what good would that do such individuals who are somehow devoid of combining the heart and intellect in one accord to seek peace, and harmony, and seek to offer that in all their dealings? Where is the poison to our spirits in this world coming from? Is it within us these poisons exist all along, and our charge in life is to learn to recognize and extract them from ourselves, or is it something external we have the capacity to draw into us at any given point in time, and by default allow them to direct our motives? Is there an age of reason where individuals must wrestle with the choices before themselves, and learn to discern how to think, and operate in the energy manifestations they put forth and align with to take responsibility for?

Can we ever return to a garden where all our mind, body and spirit needs can be met? Did we lose it forever, as is suggested in Paradise Lost by John Milton? Is this a place that never can exist again? I tend to think there has to be a conscious way of being that employs a universal wisdom and standard of knowing and awareness to help us all come to understand certain actions will lead to consequences where the outcome of our acts will lead us either into discord or lead us into accord. Not to get mired in a duality, for a divided mind is an unstable mind, yet to recognize, when we err to make amends to change course to make conscious choices in hopes to create an Eden in our lives. Is it really up to us to either make a Heaven or a Hell out of our affairs, and our conditions in this life? Of course we do not live in a vacuum, and others have the capacity to affect us, yet what must humanity do at an individual and collective level, to raise the bar of intellect to get people to become conscious of their contributions to the whole of the sociological relations affecting us all?

For me I tend to think I do not want to be unequally yoked to those who follow immoral and amoral compass points, as well as those caught up defending  a false morality of sorts that creates contentions and strife. It seems to me the immoral and the amoral make good bedfellows, yet the truly moral minded in purity of thought with either the amoral or immoral will suffer discontent. For where there is amorality and immorality that tends to be all that is left ultimately in the wake of those actions, a suffering and discontent where disharmonious conditions are dynamically in flux and self generating as a result. Certainly to know that can be the impetus to avoid such ways of being, yet why do so many not see this, and continue to act in amoral and immoral ways?

Is there merit in raising our awareness at an individual level in hopes to raise the collective consciousness not only to be found within ourselves but as an aim to impart an enlightened way of being to those all around us? Could harmony be found in elevated ways within those whose connections between heart and mind drive their intellect? Do individuals resonate with the energies they create and manifest, and if so, how does that shape the energy around them and that they send out into the quantum fields around us all? After all our thoughts are electric and magnetic, are they not?

I think it may be possible to resonate at such a high frequency where harmony and accord can be achieved. Perchance a message inherit in spiritual directives to seek to be in divine accord would by default raise the vibratory consciousness to see things at an enlightened level of awareness. I also tend to think the more waves of this energy manifested, at a quantum level, it is radiated outward from the source, all the while being in source. I think in some respects part of the collective consciousness is a constructive wave interference where harmony abounds, and perchance within such a state glimpses of  Eden can be found. For the source of this energy can be found within us all and all around us, and maybe it just takes a conscious effort for us to develop a connection with the divine source within us, in order for us to be found within the realm where divine source exists all around. Could we raise our energy and vibratory frequencies to come in sync with the divine supernatural waves immortal and eternal found all around, and could this journey lead us to be found within the garden gates?

 

Just thoughts today….1/13/2018

Note: I told a friend the other day I think I’d rather be an Edenist than a Hedonist, as I was trying to get them to think about their past hedonist ways and consequences of those ways that manifested in their life by encouraging them to introspect and to reflect. I’m making up words again in the use of the term that came to mind to be called Edenist!

Another related piece: Hedonism

 

Just a note on experiences…

After I separated in 1996 and divorced in 1999, I have had some very interesting experiences and relationships. I had been married for 17 years and in the relationship for 20 years, and at the time of divorce my ex was a VP for a publishing company. I made a deliberate decision to shy away from dating anyone who was wealthy. I never wanted money lorded over me and my decisions. I had struggled to leave the marriage for about 5 years, as I had always been a dependent during that time, and was not sure I could make it on my own. There were major issues, that had to be faced that would not go away. I ended up in situations that were cathartic that helped me face what I must. I knew in those situations that in spite of the surface of temptations and forces at play, I had to walk out and see what I was made of on my own, and in some way keep hold of my faith throughout it all, yet being open to love, and to go forward with an open heart. I figured I was starting over, so I did not judge others if they did not have that much. I wanted to find love, for I knew I could always make a home a haven whether it was a shoe box, or a mansion.

I did venture out, and boy have the forces out there along with my own choices land me in the presence of some interesting characters whose hearts I have searched, high and low, and all the while searching my own. All I can think, is what testament of a man is true unless he walks a mile in the shoe of another? Not all must do this, and for what reason, I have done so, makes me really question this process, yet it has given me things to think about, and experiences to write about and in some respects these are treatises on the human experience if to be fully written about.

There are many meandering paths we all have before us to choose to walk, or just to visit for a time or two, and for me I have often done just that to venture down various pathways of either exploring the mind of others or entrenching my mind in their lives and their experiences just to see what was hidden there either vicariously or by way of my own experience and the experiences shared. I tend to think my background from playing around in acting helped me suspend judgment and go with the flow, as well as my deliberate attempt to walk into situations practicing no fear, no ego, no judgment, and love for all. Yet, the truth is, I was discerning matters all the while at a spiritual level, as I was in search to love and to be loved. I have an unshakeable faith in the divine, and my shared experienced with another who was guiding me to see things at a spiritual level throughout many of these experiences did also contribute to me being forbearing of these indulgences. I truly do attempt to keep my eye single and full of light, yet the sad truth is so many cannot do this, and are full of darkness. To sit in the darkness takes great effort, by in doing so, the aim was and is and will always continue to be to point the direction to the single path that is toward the light.

To endure human affliction and find a way out of the demise unconscious thought and acts lead many in to that can be used to turn away from those acts to derive at a place of knowing the proper paths to choose, is something I think we all must discover, or perchance be helped to discover, for that is my aim in much of my purpose in this life. At great sacrifice, I have been aided, and at a great sacrifice in turn, I offer lessons (if any are to be found) from my own experience.

I imagine at present it could take me 1-3 years to weave the background stories to these experiences, and fantasies in succinct ways, if this is ever to be done (given I cannot dedicate at present a full time effort to this), and if not then the pieces will have to stand alone. Not to mention I still have files to go through for more pieces to share before I ever begin to write all the full narratives. I am sharing my perceived process in this. To share these snippets, and a few thoughts about them here and there, and then to organize and edit and hopefully piece it together is my plan going forward.

Oh well, cheers!