Truth my bane
does it offend
for if it does
perchance it uncovers
that what ye seek to hide
under the covers of pride
where ego resides
the lies I witnessed
in all their glory
unto friends, family,
and most of all
to yourself
the path of the blind
I have to wonder
to seek selfish things in folly
to puff up their-selves
or to get their way
to fail to honor
their own true integrity
to make a servant of love
when love
by divine nature serves
and is not made a slave
to wanton desires of the heart
it lifts the soul
yet in vain used often
sneaking to gain
when offered not
of pure heart intention
what thereby is
deemed nothing of importance
not recognizing the loss of soul
in those disposable feats
never to feel complete
and to think you are scared of me
when it is what you do you should fear
there is simply no honor, loyalty,
or integrity of heart and mind
to drive your intellect by the will
of the divine
for the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom
and the path to freedom
is to see God in everything
and when you do
never would you harm another
by deceit
to gain their attention
you by default become the whore
of your desires
where place ye them
where swiftly your feet roam
I plant these seeds
yet the salt is bitter
but truth once faced
is the way to liberation
to break those shackles
to go forth in peace
trials by fire
shall test your mete
for at your feet
I knelt
and in surrender I prayed
one day a heart to heal
Your eyes begin to see
the veil of slumber
is not your soul’s resting place
for as my master/teacher use to say
what good is it if a man must lose everything
before he wakes up
for it may be better for him to have stayed asleep
…the key to conscious desire is to become one with it…
while awake and asleep
for then you see
the path to the soul’s destiny
8/5/19
The poison of truth, is often the very medicine used to heal, it’s bitterness the ego rejects, yet the soul begins to take notice, and once affliction is released, the healing begins…
….In peace I sleep in the palm of his hand…no matter the trials I must endure to face…
You see I was also told…do not jump into the raging river to save another, unless you are strongly tethered to your beliefs….
I used to say….I would not let another drown, I will jump even if I drown in the process…
some times that has been the case…and some times now…I see what was meant…if I walk the fine line on the fence stumbling into behaviors not wise…surely I suffer as I grapple with realizations to right matters of self….I must strongly tether myself back to actions based on spiritual precepts that are ultimately good for the soul…and lead to harmony or at the very least provide a pathway to eternal bliss…no matter life’s temporary circumstance….
for this lifetime is but a minute in the big scheme of things…
(a past writing when I grappled with analysis of my failings)
Demon’s Don’t Own Me
Of course we all stumble, no judgment, we must think and DISCERN for ourselves, and we all make mistakes unaware. Some sleep walk through life, and have moments of clarity, like the veil slowly being removed, yet some pull back the covers, not quite ready to see the manifestations of their actions and choices. Consequences or outcomes often are never thought about, and then at times, the risk is thrown to the wind. I guess I realize at times…when risk is thrown to the wind…it is almost like we throw ourselves to the wind. I guess whether it is a nefarious thing or not, it is all part of the process in metaphor helping us to define where we want to align our energies and our efforts…ultimately.
This I believe, we all have a spiritual backbone, whether one wants to believe in religious ideas, there is a creative force that brought us into existence. I think good and bad thoughts, deeds, and actions are all parts of one spectrum. I think bad events make us take notice, and can even knock us off our feet to get us to take notice. I think often that is when the spine, the fiber in us seeks answers, and in this prostrate position of sorts, we seek divine, or spirit based answers, and perchance that is why we come to an age of reason to discern those things good for our soul. We all go through this throughout life, yet some are more prone to correct the errors of their ways sooner than others, and some not so much, thus life keeps offering us chances to figure out the best path to getting what we want. It all boils down to desire, and that which ye choose to believe. Yet having said that, there is an undeniable force of energy associated with life and death and universal truths we all operate within. I tend to believe that universal force resides within us all. Perchance the thumbprint of the divine (creative force) is within our DNA, and it is our choice given to us to activate or deactivate it. Perchance our choices influence this light…after all thoughts are electromagnetic energy, and this does influence us and our capacity to affect others. Maybe it is this energy that if activated helps us to go from being prostrate to activate the strength in the marrow of our bones we need to stand firmly grounded on the path that leads to health, happiness, light, truth, and harmony. After all it is the marrow that makes the very blood of our existence! The life of the body is in the blood. How you nourish your mind, body and spirit has great effects which cannot be denied…whether the models of thought used to learn this are based in religious dogma or not. So many mysteries there are to discover, most of all the truth, if at all possible.
I must add that I am not so ignorant to not realize my own errors. I tend to have an open heart, and as such go with risks, willing to learn from experiences. Charity is a most noble aspect to ourselves whether it is to give love, food, gifts, knowledge…etc. A thought comes to mind even in the Bible it says in the Song of Solomon to give all one has for love, one would be roundly mocked. I suppose love has conditions, aside from our notion to love unconditionally. I have explained thoughts on this in other writings. You see, I guess I must admit, to love and be open at times against all odds, is sometimes even an illusion that I must face…thinking it is the right thing to do…it sometimes causes great sacrifice and pain, and some times causes my own self to think by doing so, I will be loved in return and if I am not it will all be okay in the end. It is the bait to be loved in return that I fall for, thus in some respects I have deceived my own self with the bait of my own thoughts on this matter. Hence, even though my observations reflect on others, as I wrestle with my own demons, and theirs, I have to be mindful, I do not create a snare for myself in my very own actions to love…otherwise I have by my own nature put my own head in a noose, and in the process of suffering fall prey to pointing out errors of others, when in the end I alone bare responsibility for where I end up in these matters of heart, and spirituality.
The Mind is a Garden Thirsty for Knowledge 