A musician friend stops by

He pulls his guitar out

Wants to share a few new songs

He sings about how people walk around

with tombstones in their eyes

Yesterday I decided to drive by

an old house full of memories

of where it all began (contemplation of lost souls)

that is the angst for me

to look back and see

the first wolf

who came at me

it made an impression on my mind

something that made me stop

and analyze many things after that…a bit magnified

the things people do

that kill and rob joyful spirits

and I realized

There are many who walk around

with tombstones in their eyes

and they will come at you

just to have their way

to make them selves feel alive

but something inside them strangles

they see the energy of others

they want to drown in it

to make them feel

something

like something they use to know

yet inevitably it does not last

as they cling to their zombie past

for me I think the message is clear

something akin to avoiding negative people

yet they cloak it so cleverly it’s hard to sometimes see

something akin to testing the spirits

yet be cautious in those endeavors

for not to reign down more more troubled waters

for how does one really do that with integrity tell me that

Is it true that damaged people damage others

I think not if their heart has balanced perspective

yet often possibly if they have not sifted through it all

and stepped out of that cloak that others tried to drape them with

they’ll sit with the weight of their own crown keeping them down

twisted energies wrapping around….too crippled never rising

It is an innocence to rediscover all the while

understanding how the loss of innocence leads to knowledge

to keep one’s heart light on

when the winds of the world want to snuff it out

yet be wise in who you lead out, and always lead thy self first and foremost

for some will accidentally drown out the flame with their tears and not understand

the pain was only meant to direct change

just a temporary exchange…

not to choose to live within its bounds for an eternity…

yet some it seems certainly do walk around with tombstones in their eyes

for me, I realize I must learn to recognize

these energy vampires

does this mean to not help others

not at all, but sometimes

people have to learn to help themselves

and it is all about the lenses of their perceptions

sometimes you have to be brave enough

to hand them a new pair of glasses

and then walk away

and keep your heart light on from a distance

to keep the joy in your spirit

and the light in your own heart

shining bright

or else you risk

tombstones being planted in your soul

as they try to give their pain away

blindly not seeing

it is their own light

in their own eye

they need to cultivate

and use to radiate

love wherever they go…

to keep stakes from being

splintered in hearts…

a stripping to the core

to see what lies buried there

in the garden of hearts

or the graveyard of sin…

how to do this, where to begin…

watch a man’s actions

is a start

for his heart will lead him

eventually

either into realms of beauty

or into pits of disdain

where in the end

he is to blame…

for the choices

he makes

will seal his fate

and your choices too

will affect your countenance

Take not on their darkness

Run not with dogs

Wake not up with fleas

and diseased ways

clouding each day

Zombie land is not for the living…

Dead hearts need light

for the flame of their soul

to reflect in their eyes

the true mirrors

of their being

Watch in silence

and their actions will speak

and listen to the sounds of silence

and your heart will speak

11/25/2017

The walking dead around avoid, for they have the capacity to inadvertently drain your energy, and make you just like them. Such creatures are to be avoided at all costs.

Little did he know the words he sang would open my eyes to start seeing how soulless the actions of some are and so unaware they are of acting this way too.  The time and synchronicity in connecting the dots was duly noted.

When man invented time, he invented death.

Is this a valid premise, I pondered when this saying was shared with me.

I share my thoughts written out about this from May of 1998 as follows:

I was thinking about this….when man invented TIME, he invented death statement…

AND….Man did not invent death when he invented TIME, unless time was invented at the SAME TIME that man was CREATED. If TIME was created after man was created, then the death of man was already in existence before man established a correlated meaning for TIME.

AND…As the BIBLE says, or EVEN GREAT thinkers and POETS there is a SEASON FOR THIS AND A SEASON FOR THAT…AND Seasons are directly related to trans-formative cycles of birth and death according to this thinking.

SO does love DIE or does it transform, because statements to the effect that love dies, and autumn’s send directly introduce an element of time where death is a factor.

Personally, I think that time is independent of death. I feel the spirit is always evolving whether it is in the body or out of the body.

Example: Did she die at the age of 70, at noon on a Sunday? Or did she leave us to go on to other planes of existence, and does the death of a piece of flesh of 70 years old, kill the spirit? I say No. And does LOVE ever DIE, NO….because to say it does would be erroneous, and make love completely dependent on TIME.

Just thoughts….

Furthermore…

If TIME was created before Man, then man comes into a dimension of the universe where TRANS-FORMATIVE CYCLES of BIRTH AND DEATH are PRESENT. The flesh may have to operate in this dimension, and be caught in it, but the spirit moves through it and beyond it.

Still, MAN did not CREATE TIME…

It could be argued that the invention of Death came with SIN/imperfection. Yet that can be argued another way, that sin/imperfection served the purpose to implement the drive to not SIN/to become perfect, in order to be immortal on some evolutionary plane in a generative cycle of birth that can be attained at any given instant dependent on the individual which is independent of time. The cycle is just reflective of the state of the individual, and the cycle is without beginning and without end, it is a circle of complete being.

Just like LOVE…it exists on all dimensional planes and is immortal, and can be attained at any given instant dependent on the individual.

If man could grasp the ability to peer at the complete circle of his being…man would witness the trans-formative cycles of his very own love, and other experiences, and see that they are representative that love and all his experiences never die because they are in the circle of his being existing immortal and eternal.

This would support prophets who have said that man does not change…

You see man and everything he is…is eternal and immortal…each experience fixed, it cannot be undone!

I will go further to say we are the same as we have always been, but that the spirit experiences more and more, and it is through these experiences that we add to the circle of our being independent of the level. So in essence we are what we have always been as spirit and through the state of man we attune with energy again and less with man, all relative to each individual cycle we attune with along the spiral that is at the core of all existence.

As each individual evolves cyclically his circle of being becomes almost nothing, yet the energy of that nothingness expanses the entire universe.

And as far as perfection and imperfection are concerned, everything in the universe has PERFECT purpose and ORDER, no matter HOW chaotic and opposed things appear to BE.

PERHAPS…those who STAND by the position that love dies, may have their flesh caught in the web of TIME, and their spirit may not be operating independently of TIME.

Just more thoughts on the matter….

Whether my thoughts are right or wrong is not important where I am judged by others, because in some respects those terms of right and wrong are illusions upon which judgments can be made. Most importantly is for man to judge himself according to his own divine being not according to the judgments of someone else. Since when should I let judgmental “norms” outside myself dictate to me how to think? It is precisely the judgmental norms that I work diligently on discarding when I feel after much “fair” introspection, they are opposed to what my divine being thinks.

I don’t expect anyone to agree with me or accept what I think….as I am evolving and what I think may make sense to some and may not to others. The thoughts I have may transform into new states of awareness…upon which thoughts I have expressed can be a springboard for other thoughts…trial and error. Fascinating thing is that because of evolutionary cycles that occur, I can look back on the circle of my existence at any given point and see what gave birth to new cycles and growth.

It is often that our greatest successes are born of our mistakes.

I don’t claim to have the answers for anyone. I am just growing and understanding what is of importance to me. In my growth, I share my thoughts because…WHO KNOWS…it may strike chords of consciousness in someone else where they can add to my awareness based on their experiences…and vice versa.

I will always look for unifications and respect diversity as I learn to accept diversity. Part of my acceptance for diversity is learning to focus on unifications so that some sense of unity can be attained where all can be respected for their own individuality!

(I shall stop at sharing what was once written, as I go off into writing about diversity, and finding unified threads)

Note (November 21, 2017) Contemplating about past conversations and my own unresolved thoughts:

It is interesting too to note, I wrote about time shared in another piece that was written when I was around the age of 20.

The above contemplative discourse was in response to me asking me someone their age. They retorted that the older women in India might slap your face if you asked them their age, for they say when man invented time, he invented death…

You see…when you accept this notion of time…..there is a time to be born, go to school, find a mate, get married, have children, retire, and die…etc

Watch your thoughts on time, for when you recognize time, you recognize your own death.

A VERY Interesting concept to ponder independent of whether the premise is ultimately valid or not, for perchance it was not man who invented time, but time that invented death. AND if the laws of conservation of energy and mass hold truth…then there is no time and there is no death, for all that has been is all that ever is, and will remain to be, as it undergoes transformations. Can the mind escape time? I think it can, if one recognizes time is an illusion….for what if there is no beginning and end…just transformations….an eternal immortality…perchance.

Perchance our immortality embodies flesh going into and out of time, yet our soul operates on levels independent of time.

So interesting how the pursuits of men

is getting so much attention

As a young girl

I found my stepfather’s stacks of playboys

Peering within

I wondered is this what men want

I would read them, the do’s and don’ts

the articles, the cartoons, and the bios

and look at the spreads

Prepubescence budding

taking it all in

It is not like I had not seen what a man wants

for you see at a young age

the Christian man and his family of men

indulged in their senses

the man a deviant

his nephews just curious

I shall leave it at that

How was I to know

He should not have been asking for that

Men and their sexuality

to drive them to procreate

is this only natural

and what did Hugh say about that

He put it in the open

the lusts of the flesh to fulfill

Somewhat later Madonna did too

where she took the reigns

and said women can have their fair share

I lived in an age

where men would want to give

women quaaludes

so many were living in their skin

snuffing poppers to drown

the soul and quell the resistance

and the messages all around

made it all seem like that was okay

something needed to be free

In the sixties, make love not war

at least had a spiritual thread

buried somewhere

in the peace movement

yet free sex, swingers, and orgies

came ushering forth into the seventies

where the culture was making it the norm

Certainly as a teen I had my share of experiences

Yet, through it all the eyes of a child

and a young woman at heart

learned that pleasure without love

has such futile rewards

now we have all genders, transgenders

and all making the norm

yet we have taped conversations

of men grabbing women by the pussy

to flavor our day

to make us see

that something certainly went amiss

now is this any one entities fault

when it was a culture

and a drive

for men to conquer all at the helm

it is so hard for me to fathom

empty pursuits

yet hormones and vanity come into play

to be desired at the crux

I have to ask where in these drives

is the innocent man

and where is the woman he was born to protect

some cultures see the flesh as so powerful to cloak it

to preserve it behind the veil

and some tend to think that is barbaric

what has happened to the reasoning of men

what has happened to the chastity of women

Playboy is dead

can you not see

with all the disease

and strife created

where man wars with his flesh

and demons opiate

to make him think

women to drink is okay

a toast to Hugh held high

and where women change men

like shirts of the day

a hail to Steinem to liberate

certainly education is the key

yet laws making what comes natural a crime

indicate something is a amiss

society does not want to pay

for the images it has portrayed

that has led so many astray

where men will kill

and tell women it is okay

to rip their flesh from their womb

I tell you now

there will be hell to pay

unless we wake up

and see our way

out of this sin

11/21/2017

Thought: We don’t need to crucify men for being men, yet we need more education in these matters, not only for them but for women as well.