Walking in the Spirit

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Walking in the Spirit

John 6:63 It is the spirit! (It is the spirit that quickeneth; the flesh profiteth nothing: the words that I speak unto you, they are spirit, and they are life.)

Focus: the thought behind the behavior, not look at just the behavior, the spirit sees from the “word” point of view, God’s point of view, truth. Do not be condemned! Walking in the flesh is to be condemned.

Examples of when you walk in the spirit, you walk in truth verses walking in the flesh:

Matthew 26: (36-41) Verse 39: not as I will, but as thou wilt Verse 41: spirit willing, flesh is weak

There is vulnerability in the flesh. When you walk in the flesh, the flesh doesn’t want to fast, it wants to pay heed to its urges. The spirit always is in a state of willingness.

The Conflict is between the flesh and the spirit, there is a battle taking place, as to who will control your body and soul. Ephesians mentions we wrestle with principalities not against flesh and blood, the battles are not against other people, the battle is against our own! We each work out our own battle.

Galations 5:16-18 Walk in the spirit and ye shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh for flesh lusteth against the flesh, and these are contrary the one to the other, so that ye cannot do the things that ye would. The fleshly way of “thinking”, goes against the “word” of God.

People try to change behavior, can’t change behavior. In order to change behavior, you have to change thinking.

Walk in the spirit, think with the spirit, think in light, behavior will change!

Change root to behavior, change root to flesh, Change thinking to Walk in the Spirit!

“View yourself through God’s Eyes.”

                    Steps to walking in the Spirit

When you walk in the spirit behavior

  1. You must be aware of the conflict, otherwise you’ll walk in deception. Man is a spirit; body carries the flesh. Must understand the battle between spirit body and flesh body. The battle for control is between flesh and spirit for the body.

Know your conflict!

  1. Put first things first (Galations 5:16). Walk in the spirit first, not fulfill lust of the flesh (second). Did not say overcome the flesh 1st, said walk in the spirit FIRST! Can’t get flesh together 1st, must walk in spirit first!

Religion: Says stop sinning, you’ll walk in the spirit.

Scripture: Says get in spirit first to have power to overcome the flesh.

The WORD IS SPIRIT! Jesus says my word is life, word brings life.

Turn off lights. What can you do in the dark?

Devil not your problems, problem is to see from God’s perspective, problem is the way you see things, the way your thoughts are…

You Got to Walk in Spirit

When in pain…

When no money…

Walk in the Blood of Christ

John 2 (Mother of Jesus) Whatever he says do it. He transformed water to wine.

Obey…

to see transformation

 

Note: Not sure if these notes were from a sermon on TV, or from a discourse, as I often took notes of spiritual discourses. Yet with all the scripture references, I am thinking this was from a sermon, but maybe not. Hmmm, either way the message conveys an important element on changing behavior, in that you cannot focus on changing a behavior, you must change your thought process to walk in the spirit, and the behavior change will then follow.

Early 2000’s

 

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Today looking in the mirror, the seductive eye staring back at evil at me

I realized the flesh will never protect the spirit for it always looks after the flesh

When you think you can save yourself from the choices of the flesh

Always will the flesh fail…

Such an awesome awareness, of the tricks the mortal mind plays on the spiritual self

To think I could go into the Lion’s den and come out clean

I now wear the marks of my fight

Out of this raging river I must emerge

For the time is at hand for me to listen to my spirit guide

And resist all temptation to heed my mortal self

The carnal is so intoxicating

When will the embracing of this death be complete

Today I want to be born to till the soil

I pray I can get it right this time

For I must save myself

And stop trying to save others

When all I am doing is bringing them down

By the weight of my own travesties

Such a fool I have been

To think this has all been done in innocence

Just like Eve told what to do

She did things her way

And now her shame is upon me as I have done the same

This war inside me is insane

For it is hard to know for sure what God wants me to do

I always struggle with the truth

When it comes to me, I question my mind thinking I am blind

To believe God is speaking to me

Yet he keeps knocking, and my ears open

And then I question the source

Please my Lord, teach me to trust in all you wish me to do

Please my Lord, bridle my spirit to never question truth again

Please my Lord direct my hand, direct my speech, direct my manner

Please my Lord, I no longer wish to be bound by sin

I beg for liberation, I beg for strength, I beg your forgiveness

And I praise your forbearance with me, for I know you love me

As I love you, and your grace is countless and mercy beyond comprehension

Set me straight, I pray to go and sin no more.

 

1-2-03 (4:35 EDT) Today, I pulled the Rune of Self

Butterfly

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Majestical beautiful whimsical butterfly

Color me in your wing

Spin me in your song

Dance beneath my flesh

Linger in my garden

let your wings find rest among my petals

Let love be the dew of life we forever drink

Hearts merging in flight

We are born boundless without form

 

The soul in quest

The yearn to merge

The undying devotion

in every breath

To hold you near

is not enough

To be in your skin

Cannot explain

the swells of energy

bursting within me

to unite with thee

 

My heart sings with praise of thee

My passion is never ending

Forever giving

 

My wonderful man

It is you I adore

The taste of you

enrapturing me

Drenching into me

the essence of life

liquefied love

flowing free

between you and me

Expanding beyond this plane

leaving flesh behind

joining the universe

beyond mortal limitations

Glimpsing immortal tranquility

by the Grace of God we proceed

 

 

Spring of 1998

A Reflection

temple of time

A reflection,

a mirror of a perception

embedded in the psyche

an image of roses in bloom

water rushing down a river

laughter on butterfly wings

dancing bodies in a trance

the taste of tears falling down

a child that cries

and is not heard

regains its strength of its own accord

the merging of souls in sex

by way of love shared

a fruit plate

delivered by room service

gazing out high rise hotel windows

in awe at the start of a new day

dancers tapping at night on Broadway

The cat in Memories that walked our way

The phantom’s song

singing within me

the grain and the wit

to accomplish and achieve

the bed that beckons me to linger

the masks that bare my shame

the guilt it tarnishes my heart

The purity that was once

that wants to shine

to overcome the pools that drown divinity

the time spent in service and charity

of motherhood, and wife

the times the stillness

reflects my soul

to be more in moments unaware of self

but to be be entrenched in the forest of my walk

speeding through light the breath sends me

to witness cosmic blend of light

that makes us all material

and reduces us all to spiritual droplets

of creative energetic forces

with the gravity of our magnetic resonance

the projection of a reflection of a life

into the realm of prana

evolving beyond duality

to spiral beyond its shadow

the mirror of its existence but to be

a facet of the many choices to reflect

in wholeness and completion

for the circle is a circle

no matter its place in the universe.

4/13/2000

Thanks

Be thankful

I want to thank you

for who I am

I realize my identity is caught up in you

Running around trying to figure out just what to do

 

Sometimes tearful at the memories

the sadness overwhelms at the loss of dreams

 

Sometimes joyful at the task

even boastful to find the strength

 

I am what I am

I think I am nothing

and fear it is and will be

 

Am I lost without you

Are my choices blind to my mistakes

 

I’m searching, I’m looking

I’m breathing, still living

 

In the solitude of my exposure

 

1999

Wishing Well

jeweled sword

Peering into the luminescences

silencing the waves as lessons

Seeing through crystal crests

 

To be so thankful

To honor so reverently

My Lord, My God

Who came to me

Who spoke to me

In matter

Uniting the threads of spirit, time and mind

unrelentingly lifting me

against my selfish pride

 

Not an easy task

I thank thee

 

As I gaze into the wishing well

Mindful I need to continue to be

 

As I pray these heartful silent thoughts

in humility of servitude

in remembrance

of the time you gave

 

Undaunting in the blood of life

You shed for me

At great sacrifice

For the love of of love divine

 

In the wishing well of time

that presents itself before me

I wish, I pray, I know the price

 

I live these thoughts today

To respect the love of God in all

At the cost of being closer

To being within the sword of truth

 

That slays at my ego

From that and this day forth

 

2003

 

Blame

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Artist: Daniel Mirante

Blame it on the wine for I lost my mind

In love I trip, I stumble, I fall

What will it take to save me

Will I crash and burn

Never again to regain what I lose

Will it matter

Will I recover in

Truth, Love, Honor and Charity

Will I learn to give

To be open

Or will I close and grow cold

In order to be bold

Is there really strength in vulnerability

Am I strong enough to become weak

Is this what I need

In order not to bleed

Always in and out of touch

A bandage on my heart

The wounds in my soul

Where will they go

When I let them go

Who will suffer

How much can I endure

A divided heart

A split mind

Too much trouble

Too much pain

Time to take control

To become whole

An integration of the will

Not to be separated in the womb

Back to birth I go

To learn to see

To learn to listen

To learn to taste

To learn to talk

To learn to walk

All over again

In order to begin

To clean the slate

And arrange the palette

To choose the colors

From within the wells

That run deep

Within my oceans

Buckets and buckets of water

To fall drop by drop

To wash away the pain

That has been

Let my journey begin

Please God don’t leave me

Please stay by my side

Please show me the way

 

Written in the latter 90’s

 

Reality

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Can we fly in dreams

Does rage lock you in a cage

Are the tears shed for the death within us

 

Is life an illusion and death

Our only chance at reality

 

Every day we wake a fantasy

To struggle to survive the

Molecular mass of the Universe

 

Is our energy within the

Chaotic scheme that evolves

Within the attractive and repulsive forces

Of the vomit we dare not see

 

That which chokes we turn away

Not to bare the cross we dismay

 

Life that we create permeates

And penetrates the soul of man

In and out of touch with what

Is true. The light within

The darkness of us all is never

Far

 

For what is real and

What is not and was

Never meant to be

 

To sacrifice it all and For what

Which may be nothing

But our yearning to know our destiny

 

The fires that burn

And the rain that never ends

exist and persist

The pain of duality we

bare it all to never know

The extent of the life and death

and the expanse of the heavens

And the hells that will

Continue whether we see

Them, feel them, taste them, or hear

Them, yet they touch us all

 

Crash and Burn

Doom in a whimsical

Fucked up way

Only to belly up out

of the bowels of death

To wake up to the fantasy

To ponder the dimensions

 

Of the delusions that

Pull and push me and the

World away into our ignorant

State of Bliss

 

Written in the 90’s

A Brief Discourse on the Heart

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We teach our head all the time. How much time do we spend teaching our heart…anything? Don’t you think it is time? No wonder in this tug a war between head and heart, the head keeps winning after all it has had far too much attention and consequently has become the ruler of your actions sort of like a blind dictator who does not pay attention to any voice of reason.

Your heart has been providing a voice of reason for a long time, as I have written in my poetry it is time to listen to it, it will tell you when you are about to do the wrong thing. It has been overruled for such a long time that the voice of the heart has become barely audible. That is why the other night when you went and did your deeds, you said your inner voice did not warn you. It is time to pay attention to and follow the guidance of the voice of your heart a bit more until you bring proper balance between your heart and your head. Don’t make either a slave to the other.

My head told me never to see, or talk, or have anything to do with you after the many things that have come from you. My head told me there will only be more of it in the months and years to come after the very first episode, and thru subsequent episodes and my head has thus far been right….but….My head continues to chant, “Cut Your Losses…don’t waste any further energy or time. Are you not a fool, have you not learned anything yet?”. You will be Sooorry….but my heart speaks as well.

(A 21 year long dialogue still ensues…, it is all about removing ego, and fears, and surrendering)

Written as notes from a conversation 1996-2003