When I fell in love
it was the end of me
everything
every glance, touch and breath
I gave away
and when we parted
there was nothing left of me
and ever since
slowly I’ve been fading away
no one notices
they see me
but they don’t know
my heart is gone
and again
I would give it to you
even though I know now
it is a gift you did not realize
nor know quite what to do with
it got cast aside
for something shinier
or for some perception of something better
or a belief
that I did not fit in
to your activist mind
but there was a shell
of a prankster
posing as a kind soul
just taking all it could
and freely I gave it all
and now time fades
each day from view
searching for bliss
it chases you
and into the sublime
acceptance
I become
no more upon this plane
the final blow
love took its aim
and now there is nothing left to bleed
evaporation like water in the sun
and phantoms
in your dreams
to be so high
and to fall so deep
into the abyss
I shall fly away
in a moment without wings
I’ll see you one day
when you see me in you
it always happens that way
the iconic twist of fate
into the eyes
you swim
searching for the life raft
that floated by
the imposter within is freed
with each tree blowing in the wind
the ray of light in your lens
the pen in your hand shall not cease
to make it write
an eternal quest
when all fears dissipate
and love
is nowhere to be found
but in that soul
long departed
rise and shine upon a dream now black
to be one in nothingness
where all is not
10/5/2018