I can lose everything I own

but I don’t want to lose the love of my children

Because I denounce their father

Does this mean I will lose them

 

They just don’t understand

No one understands

What have I done?

What I have done

 

Who I am

And what I stand for

What moves me

And what has failed me

As I have fallen from the graces of my own integrity

To regain clarity

It had to be (perchance it did not, but it is)

 

Saddened by remorse

Of my own selfless, yet selfish vulnerability

To protect their souls

And seek passions of truth

To be true to myself

 

Yet when the mask falls

I see the pain of the

Consequences of my acts

Not all alone in this fate created

 

Yet alone I must now stand

To regain the honor all of my own

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